What a boring & wonderful day!

Yeah, seriously..

What a boring & wonderful day! 

Today its my boy first day work in this January 2013.

Morning go for breakfast with him, after that went back to his home watch drama.

Then around 11.30, we started leaving from his house to Ampang Point.

Reach there we both took a suck public transport called Metro Bus to KLCC.

Around 12.15 we reached. We walk around then I walk with him to the Isetan entrance.

After that, is seriously damn boring! 

I went to Kinokuniya to read novel book, out of sudden read 4 hours.

One of his friend also working at Isetan, called Bear.

He said wanna break 4.30, that time I was feeling like what the.

I'm so freaking hungry~! Stay in the book store for 4 hours. 

While break time, my boy Red recommend one of his new colleague to me.

If I not forgotten, his name is Kah Kit. 

Lols, I'm so forgetful.

Its a nice guy, but this boy Kah Kit. His ears got abit problem.

Don't know what happen with his ears before.

Well, well, well. After break with them.

I walk around in KLCC, Parkson. 

Then back to Isetan take my bottle from my boy Red =)

After that, I went to Starbucks to order a cup of Cafe Latte.

My favourite all the time, never changing of it. =)

Sitting down at here, online, blogging, listen song, posting picture to Instagram.

At Starbucks here the wifi connection are so sucks! 

Meanwhile, the connection kept on breakdown got a guy call Sal.

He came from Arab or Israel I cant remember.

He told me he came here to study english, at British Council.

He like this British accent, plus his country now is having a civil war.

So he ranaway and came here, his age is 21. Same age with me.

Should I trust that? hmmmm...

He look so young and cute actually =)

Thanks for his gentleman action, help me plug the laptop. 

Since he saw me alone and he is alone too, so he came over to my table to sat with me.

Meanwhile, we had a conversation. Chit-chat awhile, then ask me what am I doing over here.

I said i'm waiting for my friend, so he is leaving. 

Goodbye Sal. Had a nice conversation with you today. =)

Thank you for talking with me. 

Wish you have a great one in Malaysia. 

Take good care alone around here. =)

Something change?

January 7, 2013

Yea~ How great was it? 

Let him dump away, alone at Starbucks.

Yesterday we talk about he wanna go to meet his friend at his house.

Then he kept on ask me " then you how? "

I asked back, " then you want me go? if you wan me go, is okay. "

But I not really wanna go cause all his friend I dont know.

If he really want I go, I'm okay with it.

But, today he only said that dont want I go.

Yesterday I kept on ask him , he dont wanna tell.

Until today only he said " I not really want you go. I worry my friends they will dislike it. 

Cause they are single. "

I really felt so upset when I heard about this.

Like my friends aren't?!

I so speechless and didnt answer him.

After today what he said to me.

I think we are different kind of world people.

I tell myself all the time.

When you not by my side I still can stay alive.

Used to be alone. 

Now you tell me that they said wanna go The Curve.

Ask me wanna follow you?

Nahh!!! No way. I dont wanna join you. 

Early in the morning you already said the words to me.

I will forever remember it.

Thank you for made me to realize it.

It's 2013,

A new year begin, and the rumours of 2012 ' End of the world ' didn't happen.
Should I be happy or upset on it? 
Cause I always wanted to be happen, hope that I wont live in this world.
But, the disappointment it appear again.
Why the world didn't end? 
The world it's getting uglier and uglier.
Robs, murdering mankind & animals, raped the kids and woman.
Why the world will changed till like that?
I guess no one will know, only the God knows. 


Btw, I'm 21 years old this year.
I really should figure it out that what I have to do for my future.
Study hard? Or work hard? 
Only this two choices I have? 
Well, well, well. 
Since I was high school graduated, felt myself like rangers no different. 
Work for few months, then resigned. 
Really like a piece of shit.


January, 2013
Had been couple with my love for 6months plus, I really felt happy for that.
Meantime, the longer we go through together, the longer I felt I'm a burden for him.
Before he still single, he still can save money, he live happily.
But now, we argue frequently. 
Getting more question and trouble rushing to us.
And have to solve it by ourselves.
Seriously, feel so tired of it. 
I just wanna escape dont wanna face for it. 
Two words to describe it. TOTAL LOST


My darling, remember before we couple what you promise to me?
You said that you will be prove I'm not just your lifebuoy.
Sometimes I can feel that I still just your lifebuoy.
I'm selfish, jealousy, all the bad habit will be appears on me.
I don't know how long you can stand for it.
So scare that it will be happen again.


I knew that she still stand an important post in your heart.
Just you always refuse that. 
My hunch its true most of the time.
The question been appear in my mind, am I annoying?
People is it hating me all the time?
Get along together its easily, living together its hard.
Chow's family and their neighbour doesn't like me most of the times.
Is my problem? I think so.
Tired for living in this Chow's family house. 


Time to post some happy stuff.
Last year, 2012. 
My Christmas present got from my babe, Guinea Pig!
I wanted for so long! Thank you so much.
But, so sorry.
I dont have anything for you. 
Babe, I just wanted you to know I Love You.
I really do. 

The best farewell I ever had!

Today it's the last day of my work in Menara KH..
Some of my colleagues treat me ate japanese food ' Watami Japanese Restaurant '..
I order salmom set to eat.. So full..
Won't forget them..
Got Sook Chin-my mami, Sook Ling, Sock Yee, Phooi Sze, Catherine, Angeline, Miss Voon, Miss See..
First time, I had colleague treat me eat..
Plus got another 2 colleague treat me drinks..
Sock Yee - Starbucks, Meo Meo - Chatime..
So full, I had to drink to drinks at the same time! WOW..
My stomach full of waters..! XD

Although I just worked here nearly 5 months..
But I had learn many things I didnt know before..
Thank you! Really thank you.. =)

To my lovely..

Hey my lovely one,

Sometimes you really made me feel that I doesn't important to you..

You share your thing to your besties Sri Garden girl friend more than me..

Just now you text me a message ask me is it hate you?

Seriously, YA! 

Everyone need a canfidante? 

Should I need one? 

I hate myself too, the more I care the more I hurt..

Why my jealousy so strong? 

Strong until like going to kill myself, the feeling is like going having a suffocation..

You're testing my patient all the time, do you know that?

But sorry, you wouldn't know.. 

Cause I didn't tell you.. 

You close with girl more than boy.. 

I'm so jealous.. 

I will think sometimes, if we didn't couple and still keep our relationship as a friend, how would it be? 

Is it won't cause you sad cause of me? 

Meantime, you also can save more money for yourself.

I'm trying to inclusive you, sometimes I will think that I'm not mature enough to be with you.

I just don't wish to become like last time, A said that I control him too much..
Seriously, I don't wish to happen again.
Don't want lose you again like I lose him.
How selfish I am?
I not like weiyu, she have a big heart, a open minded mind..
Sorry, I can't did it like her..
I rather choose not to care about you, than both of us hurt and sad.   :')

suffocation

Cant I have my own decision?

Why cant i just have my own decision?
I knew you guys are worried..
I can handle myself..
Please, dont keep put pressure on me..
I'm so tired..

I'm not a kiddo anymore..
Wanna shift to outside and stay..
Can i? 
But i nowadays rental was so expensive! 
what can i do? anyone can tell me?

I Disappoint You

Dear Mom, 


I'm sorry.. I disappointed you again..
I know I didn't even try to work hard before..
I really don't know wan't how to make myself in love with BM..
My BM is more worst than you think that I'm still okay in BM..
I really sucks with it!
English essay I still know where to start...
But, BM? Gosh, I don't even know how to use their words to start!
Might be you were right..
I'm just a useless people, a piece of shit.. 
Perhaps, I really have to go Singapore to work and earn money for you..

I'm really tired,

I don't meant to disappoint you..

Sorry, I'm just a useless piece of shit..

Really just feel like wanna give up..