Tuesday, October 23, 2012

To my lovely..

Hey my lovely one,


Sometimes you really made me feel that I doesn't important to you..
You share your thing to your besties Sri Garden girl friend more than me..
Just now you text me a message ask me is it hate you?
Seriously, YA! 
Everyone need a canfidante? 
Should I need one? 
I hate myself too, the more I care the more I hurt..
Why my jealousy so strong? 
Strong until like going to kill myself, the feeling is like going having a suffocation..

You're testing my patient all the time, do you know that?
But sorry, you wouldn't know.. 
Cause I didn't tell you.. 
You close with girl more than boy.. 
I'm so jealous.. 
I will think sometimes, if we didn't couple and still keep our relationship as a friend, how would it be? 
Is it won't cause you sad cause of me? 
Meantime, you also can save more money for yourself.

I'm trying to inclusive you, sometimes I will think that I'm not mature enough to be with you.
I just don't wish to become like last time, A said that I control him too much..
Seriously, I don't wish to happen again.
Don't want lose you again like I lose him.
How selfish I am?
I not like weiyu, she have a big heart, a open minded mind..
Sorry, I can't did it like her..
I rather choose not to care about you, than both of us hurt and sad.   :')









suffocation

Monday, October 8, 2012

Cant I have my own decision?

Why cant i just have my own decision?
I knew you guys are worried..

I can handle myself..
Please, dont keep put pressure on me..
I'm so tired..

I'm not a kiddo anymore..
Wanna shift to outside and stay..
Can i? 
But i nowadays rental was so expensive! 
what can i do? anyone can tell me?