To my lovely..

Hey my lovely one,

Sometimes you really made me feel that I doesn't important to you..

You share your thing to your besties Sri Garden girl friend more than me..

Just now you text me a message ask me is it hate you?

Seriously, YA! 

Everyone need a canfidante? 

Should I need one? 

I hate myself too, the more I care the more I hurt..

Why my jealousy so strong? 

Strong until like going to kill myself, the feeling is like going having a suffocation..

You're testing my patient all the time, do you know that?

But sorry, you wouldn't know.. 

Cause I didn't tell you.. 

You close with girl more than boy.. 

I'm so jealous.. 

I will think sometimes, if we didn't couple and still keep our relationship as a friend, how would it be? 

Is it won't cause you sad cause of me? 

Meantime, you also can save more money for yourself.

I'm trying to inclusive you, sometimes I will think that I'm not mature enough to be with you.

I just don't wish to become like last time, A said that I control him too much..
Seriously, I don't wish to happen again.
Don't want lose you again like I lose him.
How selfish I am?
I not like weiyu, she have a big heart, a open minded mind..
Sorry, I can't did it like her..
I rather choose not to care about you, than both of us hurt and sad.   :')

suffocation