21-12-2012

21-12-2012
at 11:11 a.m/p.m.
dunno is a.m or p.m in Malaysia
DOOMSDAY!!
END OF THE DAY
Will you believe this?

Mayans People(Mayan civilization)dunno how many thounsand or billion years ago count tat this day will be the end of the day!

The earth will change back like last time, no people n desolate in this earth..

It will end in major catastrophes such as Earthquakes n many more....

I was get shock when i knew this...

Will this gonna be real?
Don care is real anot..
If real, it cant change..
Just can treasure what we having now...
And be happy everyday!

Guinea Pig

if all of these guinea pig is mine how good!
so cute!!
if i got guinea pig really happy!!

Sixth day

the sixth day... normal till dunno like how...
starting the day she know abt our thing..
i lost my appetite, someone tell me y?
i thin dy... wats the reason?

i not belong to you...
i not belong to you......
i'm not...

i cant do it.. really...
u scare of lonely... me too...
but u cant stand tat lonely...

Boys born out like to peek at gals...
Gals born out like to think much as they can...

u cant prove to me...
i not belong to you
i'm not at all...

you wan me be the one you like, i cant made it...
i wan you be the one i like, you cant made it...
disappointed..

Fate Always Teases People

Fourth day

today is the fourth day.. i try to make myself to SMILE..
i did it.. should i let go him..? confused...
when i reach school, blur again...

i saw m.y sit there.. i was thinking why she don talk wif me..
then i dint talk wif her too...
i dunno y i will smile today its smile like last time... someone can tell me y? hmmm

lucky Jam not so anxious abt me dy.. coz i smile? C=
i keep think when my birthday or some festival or 12/31 can i go out celebrate wif my frens n him..
why should i let u tied until so tight? i don like...

cant use phone, no msn juz can watch movie...
now everyday reach home finish take my lunch u juz know how to say...
"i not told u everyday reach home study ma? no homework ma?" ARGH!
then i juz answer her "wait......."

today did i miss him much? i can say not so... but juz keep think abt how was his future?
is he bad or? i'm dumb, like my family say...
y i not miss him much like past few days?
isit i knew he not so miss me or i wan myself be happy?

i dunno wats my mood now n at school how was my mood...
i juz know answer "dunno dunno dunno..." to myself...
am i escape? to many question jump out...

now i keep waiting ur mail...
when u no reply i asked myself r u busy?
r u let go me dy? u sleeping? u lazy to reply me from mail?
or yr bro using the laptop don let u use?

so disappointed u no reply me...
dunno wat u thinking..

BTW, i wanna thanks to my frens they support me.... C=
i will try to be strong... like Jam said shouln't weak than boys..
must be tough.. (but i'm not tought at all)

Third Day

the third day of my full of sadness n painfull...
today when i reach home, my mom told me she call qi mom..
i feel myself so shamelss.. my things qi mom also knew..
dunno where to hide..

after that my right leg another 3 scar came out.. my face haven cured yet another
few slap and pinch my face again...
my tears drop until no tears.. already feel paralysis..
althought how pain was it...n my mom kick me out from house.. she wan me pack all my clothes..
finally i walked out but my dad come fetch me home, cause he scare report police will blame him

when i reach home.. she wan me kneel infront of god n swear to god:
i won contact wif him or any boys
i will study good
after SPM or College only can couple
must listen to her
all of this i dunno can do it anot.. hope so...

morning when i woke up i had a habit is look at right side where my phone put it..
but look at there nothing at all, becoz is not wif me dy..
i so miss him, every morning or nite also will send the msg to him..
but now cant do it... every nite i fall asleep i will suddenly wake up, coz i miss him..

at school today my face i feel like wanted to wear a mask..
i so hope her will come n comfort me.. but she dint made it..
i know she dunno wan how to comfort i understand..
my stomach was hungry at school, but i don feel like wan to eat..
i juz ate few pieces of biscuit then hungry till home face my mom.

i had no energy to face her n answer those repeat n repeat question..
i had lost the trust from my family.. i think i no need their trust..
i'm enuff... went to jusco wif my dad juz now.. i wanna take his phone n call my sis..
my sis dint pick up, i call again, he don trust me, he tot i will msg him or call him...

my only entertainment is comp... switch on the comp watch drama or movie or check mail..
what can i do? the brain full of question mark... blur at all...

I'm lost

i'm lost.. i dunno wan how to walk infront the road..
my parent knew we couple knew all the things.. haiz
my parent oppose me n him together..
i dunno now we count as break up anot...

my parent wan me after form 5 only can couple...
they say him is a bad guy... is he? i don think so...
i let her beat until my face n leg also bengkak....

my mom said today wanna meet him..
at last, he dint reach.. i was so sad he dint reach, i keep look outside the window..
she kept my phone, no phone, no go out shopping.. just can stay at hse study n be house wife.

she wan me choose, 1 is choose family n sacrifice him.. 2 is choose him n leave the hse follow him..
i really feel like wanna choose him.. i'm really lost...
i hope someone can beside me.. support me, i hope he can be my side..
but he cant... i'm tired of my life..

dunno after form 5 SPM how was my life, will i be wif him again?
i hope will, but might be he's change, not like now...
might be after 2 years he already be wif other gals n forget me dy...
every seconds, every minutes, every hours, everyday i'm missing you now...

dunno will you? will u change bad? now everyday also have spy at hse..
so uncomfortable... my tears keep drop when i miss you...
will u prove to my family, everyone tat u r not a bad boy?

wat r u doin there now? will u dream me when u sleep?
will u miss me? will u keep look at the phone waiting my call or msg?

i'm tired

FUCK OFF!
BASTARD!


I'M VERY TIRED!
I WANNA REST!
I CANT STAND ANYMORE

I'M NOT TAT TOUGH AT ALL...
I'M SO WEAK..
U ALL THINK I SO TOUGH, I'M NOT!!
EVEN U TOO!
I HATE U!

U JUST KEEP ASK ME DO THIS DO TAT..
DID U CARE WAT MY FEEL IS?
U HURTING ME..
JUST DO WATEVER U LIKE..
BUT ME LEH?
ALWAYS WAN ME LISTEN TO U!

I VERY TIRED

Celebrate daddy birthday 4/7/2009

daddy n mummy.. hehe.. leng zai leng lui? XP

sis, second bro, me, daddy, mummy... miss my elder bro.. this year cant celebrate wif us..

my familiy n my parent frens

daddy blowing candle.. old old le...

GOSH!!!

so nerd de me.. my bro take my pic take until my face so big~!!

eyes open so big! look so fat... T_T

lim teh.. thinking thing.. n enjoying.. haha

look like very good gal.. =.=

wat am i starring leh? no leng zai also.. haha! so dark

nice ma, tat i wearing white spec?

my bro n me.. hehe

pig, me, ham jim bang, my sis

haha! childish de me

the pig also wanna take pic.. "bang!"

kaka!

taking pic wif my sis PIG

beside is my bro, he's lost! coz he's taking pic for me.. lols

me n my ham jim bang.. miss him so much!

lols, y my bro the lips so sexy like model?! muahaha

hehe

kaka.. actually is my bro taking.. i walk beside him... then my sis juz saw the head XD

wat look is this ne?

my sis, me, my bro

my sis, me, my bro again

eeee!

me n my bro.. not nice..
ham jim bang.. cute ma? hehe.. like him.. miss u babe
tats all for yesterday..