當愛一個人..

當愛一個人，卻無法擁有他時，自己面對著一個選擇：放棄還是繼續。

包括你在內的很多人都說：放棄吧，不要再浪費青春。
但是，自己卻明白，自己真的放不下。

如果能放下，早都已經放下了，根本不會到現在的地步。
所以，當黑夜來臨的時候，我只能孤獨的思念一個人。

我不能無法自拔...

夠了

轉了幾個彎　停了幾個站
天亮了　迷路了　你沒有過問
挽回幾次了　煩心幾遍了
哭過幾次才懂得我剩一個人

不想再愛了　不想捨不得
不想要變成　最後認輸的人
想哭想瘋想忘了
你曾是我愛的那個人
不想再愛了　不想再痛了
就算會失去了天份
我想安穩　我想完整
我想我受的傷夠了

思念一個人　也寂寞的人
擁有的　失去了　我害怕什麼
獨自一個人　獨自面對著
揮不散你的體溫　掙脫又如何

不想再愛了　不想捨不得
不想要變成　最後認輸的人
想哭想瘋想忘了
你曾是我愛的那個人
不想再愛了　不想再痛了
就算會失去了天份
我想安穩　我想完整
我想我受的傷夠了

誠實的面對我自己　想擺脫記憶
在破碎之後能永遠忘記你

不想再愛了　不想捨不得
不想要變成　最後認輸的人
想哭想瘋想忘了
你曾是我愛的那個人
不想再愛了　不想再痛了
就算會失去了天份
我夠了想安穩　我想完整

不想再愛了　不想捨不得
不想要變成　最後認輸的人
想哭想瘋想忘了
你曾是我愛的那個人 

 

What happen?

Don't know why I can felt that my body getting weaker & weaker..
While I walk my leg like no strength...
Suddenly fell down.. Sometimes while I walking my vertebal its so pain..
These few weeks getting worst..
I'm so worring myself..
I don't wanna be my family burden..
Please tell me I 'll be fine..
Will someone care about me?

Dear Red, 

Today when you ask me join you go for Lang Tengah, 

I really so excited! I know you're missing her.. 

You more excited than me that can see her.. Right?

But when I asked you why suddenly want go Lang Tengah,

and your reason say that Yian want go..

Meaning that she going too..

I dont want.. I just wanna go with you, do you know?

Meantime, I rejected you.. 

Sorry, I'm trying so hard to let go you in my heart.. 

Kept telling myself stop falling for you already..

I knew without me you still will very happy and enjoy your day.. =)

That time went out with you, You told me that 1 day you had 7 girls texted you at the same time..

Wow.. You shocked me! Seriously, I confirm that many girls are in love with you..

But, I also glad that you told me about your stuff..

But my heart were so pain.. Who can I speak to?

Really dont know how to confess my feelings to you..

Dear A, 

between me and you those pictures I had totally deleted..

I think I really let go of you..

When I saw your pictures took with your gf..

Those of your happiness smile had come out.. 

Really happy that you living happily..

Before I delete those pictures that I took with you,

really dont even have 1 pic that you're smile from your heart..

Perhaps, be with me really unhappy..

I can't give you happiness..

Eventually, you found your real happiness..

Wish you both cherish each other!  =)

A quote for myself. =)

Just because we can't be together, Doesn't mean I won't love you..

Oh, please...

Oh, please.. Don't always put the blame on me..
I'm your daughther, not your house maid!
Don't ask me do all the stuff..
Brother also staying in this house, don't kept ask me do all the housework!
I'm enough with it!
GOD DAMN IT!

Please la, MANTENG LAM & ADRIAN LEE!
You both were PISSING ME OFF!
Wanna show your conjugal love, please go far away!
No need go where also check in blah blah blah..
When you both make love time why don't you check in on the FB
and take both of your naked pictures too!? FUCK OFF!

Today went for an interview at Pavilion..

Seriously, I really not willing to work in Malaysia..

Don't wanna argue with you all everyday.. 

Really hate it!

Please.. Release me..

Time..

時間，讓深的東西越來越深，讓淺的東西越來越淺。

看淡一點，傷就會少一點，時間過了，愛情淡了，也就散了。

別等不該等的人，別傷不該傷的心。


我們真的要過了很久很久，才能夠明白


自己真正懷念的，到底是怎樣的人，怎樣的事。

Letting go~

To let go isn't to forget, not to think about, or ignore.

It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret.

Letting go isn't about winning or losing.

It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past.

Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and it doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness.

It's not about giving in or giving up.

Letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat.

To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on.

It is having an open mind and confidence in the future.

Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing.

To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow.

It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will

soon gain.

Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving.

LETTING GO IS GROWING UP.

It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy.

To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and

… SET YOURSELF FREE.

【人生須放下的八樣東西】

1）放下壓力：累與不累，取決於心態。
2）放下煩惱：快樂其實很簡單。
3）放下自卑：把自卑從你的字典裡刪去。
4）放下懶惰：奮鬥改變命運。
5）放下消極：絕望向左，希望向右。
6）放下抱怨：與其抱怨，不如努力。
7）放下猶豫：立即行動，成功無限。
8）放下狹隘：心寬，天地就寬。

學着不要那麼在乎..

Can saw that now you had love the girl deeply..
Before you dont wan accept her request..
Now you accept her back..
Wish you both happy.. =)


Meantime,
Dear Red.. Now I'm learning not to fall for you so much..
After the passage of time, you are not worth for me to love..
Cause you still so in love with her, and no matter what you will do anything for her..
How about me? I knew you just treat me as friend..
Is when you felt lonely or unhappy or want tell me about her stuff only you will find me that kind of friend..


When I saw Tesy treat you like a BF, and when she home wanna get out from the car,
you said 'Dont have a kiss for me?' You just joke with her, but she really gave it to you..
then she really kissed it..
At the moment, I felt so heartache! She can be like couple with you even you both just are friend..
Then I said you both really so crazy..
After that, you said you can be like her too..


Sorry my dear Red.. I really cant be like her..
I'm selfish.. If  I couple with a guy, I want him be my only one..
And I'm not so open like her.. I just can say that I'm old-fashioned..


I really want leave malaysia, leave far away from you..


My blog post going to full of your stories already..

This is what I wanted to do all the time!

Have to save up much money dy.. 

Oh, My heart..

Once again, I can heard my heart a broken sound again..

A piece, a piece tear out..

我的心, 又再一次的楸了一下..

I just saw the picture that you and the bitch go to Pulau Ketam..

The conjugal love face.. My tearsdrop again..

I thought that I had let go.. 以為我能瀟灑的忘了... 

But when I saw her pictures.. I cant made it! 

Who can mke me forget about you? 

I'm so jealous of you both.. You haven do this to me before.. 

Really so hope now got a guy treat me as his only one,

make me happy, be by my side,

and can make me forget about you..

Dear blogger..

Dear blogger,

I had left you a long time again..
Sometimes had many heart feeling wanna to blog it..
But when I log in, just stop there dont know what to blog..

Dear Red,

I knew I had fall for you..
My dear joey asked me to confess to you..
I really dont dare.. Plus I knew that you wont give a chance to us..
Cause your heart already full of her.. =)
Sometimes fall in love with a person doesn't meant really have to be with them..
Just like how your feeling to her..
Eventually, I didnt confess to him.. Cause I think this is the best way to keep us going..
Now its not the time for me to have a relationship.. I doesn't fit it..

Sorry dear, had made you disappointed that I dont have the guts to confess to him..

I just watched 'You Are The Apple Of My Eye' today..

Really a nice movie, talking about love, high school life & ambiguous relation..
But at the end of the story.. Isn't the story I expected..
The leading actor at last didnt be with leading actress.. She had married another guy..
But, the leading actor still in love with her..
The quote I most remembered,
'原來, 當你真的非常非常喜歡一個女孩, 當他有人疼, 有人愛，
你會真心真意的祝福她, 永遠幸福快樂'

Dear Red, you just like the leading actor.. Totally alike..
No matter how, you just wanna see she happy..
You can do anything for her..
Thats why I choose not to confess to you..
This might be the best way.. =)

I think you already felt that I like you..
Just you choose not to know and be a best friends, good brothers with me..
I knew in your heart I'm just a bro to you..
Who call me so boyish..
Sometimes, I will thought.. Should i be happy for it or not?

Everytimes heard you told me that you miss her so much, my heart just pain a little while..
Then I told myself, should let go.. Dont heartache..
Then I will sang this song again.. ='(
‘好朋友只是朋友,
还是朋友 不能够占有,
好朋友疯狂以后,
就一个人走 无所求..

好朋友只是朋友,
只能保留 一点点温柔,
我知道什么时候回头,
不打扰你的自由..'

After I had broke up with A..
I only knew that I doesn't suit for in a relationship..
After all, can't blame it all to A..
I have to thank you him for teaching me not to fall for a person so easily &
not make the guy so important on my own.. =)

一個人單身久了，就不想去戀愛，會感覺朋友越來越重要；
一個人單身久了，就不想逛街，會越來越喜歡在家聽歌；
一個人單身久了，就變得成熟起來，會比以前更愛父母；
一個人單身久了，會想獨自去很多很遠的地方旅遊； 
一個人單身久了，會不經意的悄悄流淚，但在眾人面前裝作什麼都無所謂。

漫漫長路由我獨自一個人走..