Third Day

the third day of my full of sadness n painfull...
today when i reach home, my mom told me she call qi mom..
i feel myself so shamelss.. my things qi mom also knew..
dunno where to hide..

after that my right leg another 3 scar came out.. my face haven cured yet another
few slap and pinch my face again...
my tears drop until no tears.. already feel paralysis..
althought how pain was it...n my mom kick me out from house.. she wan me pack all my clothes..
finally i walked out but my dad come fetch me home, cause he scare report police will blame him

when i reach home.. she wan me kneel infront of god n swear to god:
i won contact wif him or any boys
i will study good
after SPM or College only can couple
must listen to her
all of this i dunno can do it anot.. hope so...

morning when i woke up i had a habit is look at right side where my phone put it..
but look at there nothing at all, becoz is not wif me dy..
i so miss him, every morning or nite also will send the msg to him..
but now cant do it... every nite i fall asleep i will suddenly wake up, coz i miss him..

at school today my face i feel like wanted to wear a mask..
i so hope her will come n comfort me.. but she dint made it..
i know she dunno wan how to comfort i understand..
my stomach was hungry at school, but i don feel like wan to eat..
i juz ate few pieces of biscuit then hungry till home face my mom.

i had no energy to face her n answer those repeat n repeat question..
i had lost the trust from my family.. i think i no need their trust..
i'm enuff... went to jusco wif my dad juz now.. i wanna take his phone n call my sis..
my sis dint pick up, i call again, he don trust me, he tot i will msg him or call him...

my only entertainment is comp... switch on the comp watch drama or movie or check mail..
what can i do? the brain full of question mark... blur at all...