Fourth day

today is the fourth day.. i try to make myself to SMILE..
i did it.. should i let go him..? confused...
when i reach school, blur again...

i saw m.y sit there.. i was thinking why she don talk wif me..
then i dint talk wif her too...
i dunno y i will smile today its smile like last time... someone can tell me y? hmmm

lucky Jam not so anxious abt me dy.. coz i smile? C=
i keep think when my birthday or some festival or 12/31 can i go out celebrate wif my frens n him..
why should i let u tied until so tight? i don like...

cant use phone, no msn juz can watch movie...
now everyday reach home finish take my lunch u juz know how to say...
"i not told u everyday reach home study ma? no homework ma?" ARGH!
then i juz answer her "wait......."

today did i miss him much? i can say not so... but juz keep think abt how was his future?
is he bad or? i'm dumb, like my family say...
y i not miss him much like past few days?
isit i knew he not so miss me or i wan myself be happy?

i dunno wats my mood now n at school how was my mood...
i juz know answer "dunno dunno dunno..." to myself...
am i escape? to many question jump out...

now i keep waiting ur mail...
when u no reply i asked myself r u busy?
r u let go me dy? u sleeping? u lazy to reply me from mail?
or yr bro using the laptop don let u use?

so disappointed u no reply me...
dunno wat u thinking..

BTW, i wanna thanks to my frens they support me.... C=
i will try to be strong... like Jam said shouln't weak than boys..
must be tough.. (but i'm not tought at all)