I'm lost

i'm lost.. i dunno wan how to walk infront the road..
my parent knew we couple knew all the things.. haiz
my parent oppose me n him together..
i dunno now we count as break up anot...

my parent wan me after form 5 only can couple...
they say him is a bad guy... is he? i don think so...
i let her beat until my face n leg also bengkak....

my mom said today wanna meet him..
at last, he dint reach.. i was so sad he dint reach, i keep look outside the window..
she kept my phone, no phone, no go out shopping.. just can stay at hse study n be house wife.

she wan me choose, 1 is choose family n sacrifice him.. 2 is choose him n leave the hse follow him..
i really feel like wanna choose him.. i'm really lost...
i hope someone can beside me.. support me, i hope he can be my side..
but he cant... i'm tired of my life..

dunno after form 5 SPM how was my life, will i be wif him again?
i hope will, but might be he's change, not like now...
might be after 2 years he already be wif other gals n forget me dy...
every seconds, every minutes, every hours, everyday i'm missing you now...

dunno will you? will u change bad? now everyday also have spy at hse..
so uncomfortable... my tears keep drop when i miss you...
will u prove to my family, everyone tat u r not a bad boy?

wat r u doin there now? will u dream me when u sleep?
will u miss me? will u keep look at the phone waiting my call or msg?